Living with Bipolar Disorder

I am a soon to be wife whom was married for 17 years to a husband whom had Bi Polar. He was the most giving, courteous, and hard working person a woman would ever want, BUT he indeed was a workaholic. His mind went 24/7 like a hamster in a cage spinning around on the wheel. He has had such episodes of explosive behavior such as outburst of cursing, throwing things, beating his own fist on his head and vomiting. I have tolerated this behavior for 17 years and it has become worse over the years. Every 3 years, he gets into a “FANTASY” phase if you will and we would always have to sell our house up and relocate because he felt the need to be such a contol freak that he felt as though he was “UNCONQUERABLE”. He was a great financial provider, for me and my 2 children, but the price was far too great. Not only had he destroyed my “dignity” and independence but the price of my children witnessing the fits of rage, abuse, and leaving us at least 6 x in the past 16 years was too powerful.

He left 2 months ago and moved in with my Aunt and Uncle. He is also now having an affair with my “friend” and I know that he will try to come back as he always does but I am done. He is on Lithium, Lexapro and his levels are regulated correctly. He is now in one of the euphoria phases that I am too familar with and his “friend” is in danger. I wish the best for him but I do not see him getting any better. I am a woman scorned and now see that the control factor and the empathy that he used on me has been far too much. I am free now and hope that I can find some peace in my life.

Wish me LUCK