I have always been over weight, and it has taken me over 30 yrs to deal with why I am over weight. While why I became over weight in the first place is a issue, right now my issue is dealing with the weight and trying to lose it. The reason I am even righting this and sharing my shame is because if I can help one person from getting where I am right now it will be worth it.

Currently I weight six hundred and ninety pounds (690lb) that’s right I wrote it out because that is not a typo. I woke up one day and knew I had to do something. Oh I had doctors telling me how bad the weight was for me but every time I tried to lose the weight I would fail. I tried diet after diet and nothing worked. What finally got me was a fall. I fell one day while I was with my son outside and I couldn’t get up on my own. Two strangers had to help me , but as I was dealing with the shock that I couldn’t pull myself up alone and the shame of have two grown men I didn’t even know feel sorry for me and help me up it was the look on my sons face that did it for me.

He was scared and worried and he could not stop shaking, he was so worried about me that he couldn’t function and I hurt just looking at him. So I turned a new leaf the very next day. I started watching discovery health and big medicine anything that would help me in my journey. Watching shows like Brookhaven helped me a lot. I wanted to know what these people were eating and how they were working out and little by little I had enough information to help myself. I cut my diet to 1200 calories and started eating 5 small meals a day. I gave up salt and stopped drinking regular soda and switched to diet.

Please don’t misunderstand it was hard at first really really really hard. I would go to bed early every night so I wouldn’t binge eat. After the first few weeks I started to see a big difference and this mad it easier because for the first time in my life something was working. My waist when I started was 163inches. In a years time (April, 16 2008) it was 86 inches. It was then that I finally went to the doctor to see what I weighed and found out I was at 690 pounds so I can only imagine what I was before.

Everyday for me is a fight and everyday I have to make a choice to stick with this. There are days I fall off my wagon but I don’t let it slow me down I get back up and get back on. The truth is I haven’t been back out with my son since that day I fell and I want more than anything to be able to have a day with him that’s filled with fun and happiness not worry that any second I may fall and hurt myself. I dont want to die an obese person so I am not giving up without a fight. For every over weight ,obese person I say to you if you cannot find the strength to fight for yourself then do it for your love ones. Just take one day at a time you wont regret it…promise!